I have no idea how we got here... I only know what I want to make you happy. You have become a part of me and I a part of you. We are intertwined as one. Today marks the worst day of my life. I feel as though I have been shut out from your life. I don't know what you're thinking or how you're feeling... about us, about life in general. all i want to do is scream..... scream as loud as I can. I look around and alll i see is you. Memories of you, pictures of you, your presence in this place. I have no idea what is running through that mind of yours but all I know is that I luv luv luv you. You are the only one for me and me for you. we have some much needed things to talk about but i cannot loose you. i am in distress. in horror. my heart is crushed by you and no matter how hard i try i cannot figure out how we got here. your words today were spoke in such distaine. in such resentment I just don't know how to handle it..... all the while feeling like its my fault... which i'm quite posiitve it's not... but now is not that time for he said she said. I have drank away my sorrows and listening to the music of my past. I am feeling better. no, I'm not, that was a lie.

All I want is for the phone to ring and for it to be you. I have no idea where you are or what you're doing.... all i know is that i cannot loose you.

not sure where this blog is going or what i'm trying to say.... i just need you to understand where im coming from and i hope we can work it out in the end... because you are the only one for me. you are my best friend and my soulmate. my one true love, my world, my being. i luv luv luv you.